So last night, my best friend told me that my boyfriend can't just read my blog and that he actually has to hear me say the things that have happened to me in the past.
But why can't he read it? Why does he have to hear it from me when I can't say out loud any of what is already written here in my blog.
The reason I began my blog is because I wanted to be able to get the thoughts out of my head so that I didn't have to keep recalling things every time I had to tell anyone about my past. It hurt too much for me to try to talk about my past, that's why I started this blog.
But now I'm faced with the dilemma that is the fact that my boyfriend won't read my blog because he doesn't want to know what hurt me in the past.
And now I'm faced with the problem of me going out of state for a week and feeling like I'm going to lose him even though I have 2 people telling me that I should stop worrying. All my insecurities are coming up and I hate it, but I don't know how to tell my boyfriend that without him feeling bad.
I guess I'll just have to see what happens huh?
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