Things are getting so confusing lately, relationship wise. The guy I was falling for isn't really in my life anymore, and I just keep getting reminded of him whether I'm at school or just at home or just by myself. We met for the first time when it was raining and I don't think it's rained since then until this past week, and when it rained I was depressed the whole day because I miss him and I know that he doesn't even care anymore.

As for other things, I still have feelings for my ex and he still has strong feelings for me, so he says, yet he has a girlfriend so me and him can't even talk to each other without her getting jealous just because we have a history.  It pisses me off that I can't even have a conversation with my friend without worrying about her getting jealous or going through and reading all of our conversations. In my opinion, she has no right to do it regardless of her relationship with him.

I don't really know what to do. I know I should probably just quit focusing on anything other than school but I can't, I try and try but I can't stop thinking about things.

I hate that I can't just let things go and move forward. I guess I just don't want to let go of things until I have them figured out.

What else is new?

Looks like I got played yet again...If I had a dollar every time that happened, well, I'd be a little bit richer than I am now.
I fell hard and all I got was cut and broken.
I thought things had changed but it looks like I was seriously wrong. 
It turns out he wants his ex back even though he doesn't think it'll actually happen. So pretty much, I got lied to, played and used all because some guy can't let go of his past.
But I guess that just means that I'm too good for him huh?
But all well. I'm done. I'm sick and tired of getting played so I'm going back into my hole and closing myself off. People wonder why I keep things bottled up, well this is why. Anytime I open up and let someone in, I just get screwed over.
So fuck it. I'm staying single.