Things are getting so confusing lately, relationship wise. The guy I was falling for isn't really in my life anymore, and I just keep getting reminded of him whether I'm at school or just at home or just by myself. We met for the first time when it was raining and I don't think it's rained since then until this past week, and when it rained I was depressed the whole day because I miss him and I know that he doesn't even care anymore.

As for other things, I still have feelings for my ex and he still has strong feelings for me, so he says, yet he has a girlfriend so me and him can't even talk to each other without her getting jealous just because we have a history.  It pisses me off that I can't even have a conversation with my friend without worrying about her getting jealous or going through and reading all of our conversations. In my opinion, she has no right to do it regardless of her relationship with him.

I don't really know what to do. I know I should probably just quit focusing on anything other than school but I can't, I try and try but I can't stop thinking about things.

I hate that I can't just let things go and move forward. I guess I just don't want to let go of things until I have them figured out.